Interview Horrors

It's a few days before Campus interviews starts and it's giving me the anxiety I HATE to feel. I even had nightmare a week before the first day of it. My past experience of my first interview is haunting me. Argh. Everytime I talked to someone about my fear, I get back the same old answers. " Just be calm and confident. It'll be fine." But that's exactly easier said than done.

I know what I should do too. But I didn't do what I should during my first interview. I panicked and freaked out. HAI! Furthermore, I can't think clearly if I'm anxious. So how am i suppose to act normal.

Then, all my friends will tell me just go for more interviews. I'm doing it now and I'm hating the tension that I have to go though before that actual day arrive. My mind keeps telling me "It's coming. You've got to prepare for it." Even though I know it but I get breathing difficulty everytime I think about it. Not to mention about trying to prepare for it.

Moreover, I don't think that I stand a high chance getting hired there. Like my friend said:" the whole school without jobs are going for campus interview". ==> That really gives me all the encouragement I've need. =(

I've signed up for an account in Facebook.

Yes. Finally an account in Facebook. I've been reluctant to have one account in Facebook ever since it got popular. I don't find that there's a real need to one since I've been using Friendster to stay in touch with my friends. Till now, I still can't really say that I needed one.

It's so much more complicated than Friendster. What's the point of having something more complicated, difficult to use and understand yet serving the same purpose as another simpler and user-friendly system?

Futhermore, I can't seem to login everytime ever since I've gotten an account. Does it happens to you too? Or it is only me? This is really pissing me off. Facebook should feel honored that someone who doesn't like him very much had decided to try to like him. With this faulty problem that it has, I'm even more firm and resolute as to why I hate Facebook so much.

The two reasons why I gave it a try are that
1) I'm bored and free now.
2) Amazingly most of my friends are on it and some of them doesn't even have a Friendster account.
And the reason why I place this at the end of my entry is that I totally feel that it's an insignificant paragraph to be included into my entry. I've added it just so that people might questioned me to: "Why someone who dislike Facebook this much is getting a Facebook account? " And that paragraph would have answered to your queries if you are one of the people I'm talking about.

Thinking Back

My last exam is on the 29th of this month. After it, I still have an oral presentation. Once I've finish with my presentation, I have completed my curriculum as a engineering undergrad. It's something I been looking forward to. Every undergraduate are looking forward to it. I thought the feeling will be the same as graduating from your secondary school/poly or JC. You know happy and feeling excited to embrace what's ahead. But the feeling is rather different. I not implying that i'm unhappy, just that uni.'s system is a whole lot different. Being someone who's not clever, I've pulled through these four years with my hard work. Well, I don't know if it paid off since I'm still not sure what class of honors I'll be getting. But I'm glad and proud to say that I've been really hardworking at some point of time in my life. I can't forget the days where I stayed up late in school just to study. Most of time I'm studying alone and thinking back about those times surprised even myself. I never thought I have that determination in me to stay in school to mug. I emailed the lecturers to make an appointment with them so that they can clarify my doubts. I spend time communicating with my lecture notes and do my tutorials before attending them. There are times that I did put in effort and I'm glad I did. Even if my grades doesn't show, I'm glad I tried my best and not waste my time away. I'm proud and I feel that I'm able and confident.

It might looks like I'm boosting or something, but I believe that everyone had similar experiences as me. And thinking back about these experiences never fails to boost up your confidence a little. I glad and satisfied.

And I hope that with this little confidence boost, I'll be able to face the working world a lot more better.

Sometimes I feel that I can understand why people wants to commit suscide...

That place is suppose to be filled with warm and love. It's suppose to make people yearn to come back. But to me, this place is never the way it is suppose to be. I can't help but feel depress, sad, miserable and trapped.

Everywhere I see in that place is filled with evidence of her presence. Her abnormal self. I want to do something about it. I want but there's nothing much I can really do. Trying to reverse her actions will only cause a quarrel. I don't want a quarrel neither do I want to let her do what she want. Some times I can't help it but feel like blaming her for all the unhappiness that she had caused. I know it's not right since its not that she really wants to. The only thing that I am capable of doing is to run away. But that is not a place where I can run away forever. I have to go to that place sometimes and running away from that place makes me feel that I'm just running away from my problems.

I want to be normal, be insignificant. Just want to hide away from this harsh reality. I tried to brush it aside and not to think about it whenever I can. I tried to look forward to going back that place. Psycho-ed myself many times to look on the bright side. But I cant. I really cant. I want to stay strong but it's far from possible to me...

彩云国物语 aka Saiunkoku Monogatari

A truly magnificent anime that I've been watching lately. If I'm given a choice I wouldn't categorize it as an anime. To me, It's more like a short fiction Chinese story like 'Xi Yu Ji' or '108 Tiao Hao Han'. By now you would have know that the story set in the ancient china. In short, this story is about an upright lady who dream of becoming a governor so that she is able to care of the citizens in her country. (In the ancient times, the court had always been dominated by men and women were forbidden to take the exams.) She knows that her dream will never come true but she never give up in her dream. And the turning point of her life begins on the day where she agree to become the temporary 'wife' of the emperor. Of course, the emperor nor she came up with this decision. It was the higher governors who requested for her assistance to guide the presently uninterested emperor into ruling the country. Being the daughter of a poor low rank governor, she agreed upon hearing the price they offered. Her duty: to make the emperor attend to his duties! Her journey begins here but it didn't end here. Of course, she manage to hold a governor post in the anime but how and what other difficulties did she face? For those questions, I'll leave it for you guys to answer them after watching it.

Is there romance in it? There are quite a few but I would say that it wasn't the story's main focus so there's only parts of these episodes that contain lovey-dovey scenes. But I got to say that the men drewn in these story are ATTRACTIVE! Lol.. Not that all of them physically attractive but all of them have their own personalities which are attractive depending on the type you like.

But do note that the story can be pretty confusing at some point of time. Since the people in the court are brilliantly talented/clever in their own way, it might be hard to understand some of the schemes they are plotting. Moreover, the subtitles are in Chinese for some of the episodes I've watched. (Chinese~ Something I've return to my teachers long ago. I'm never good at it tot. =~( )

There's in fact 2 seasons to this anime. Each is 39 episodes long. Pretty long eh? Lol.. Well I believe you will enjoy watching it and still wanting for more. Haha..fine! That might only occur to me but it never hurt to watch the first episode of the anime before deciding on whether to continue or not.

MIA but am back for dunno how long(Lol)

Aye~

I know what you guys are going to tell me once I had my chatter box up. Must be one of the statements below, so I'm just going to post up my replies below them (lol):

1) You lazy bum. So lazy to even update your blog?
Wah: Sorry la.. Everyone are lazy at some point of time.

2)What the *(&%$^! You never post anything after your previous post stating the entires you want to type about. I was looking forward to reading one of them you know? Afterwards, you stopped blogging for like a few months, are you kidding me?
Wah: Haha..Not funny meh? I see liao also find myself pretty funny leh. So ironic right?

3)Auntie, how come after you left your blog to rot, the chatter box disappeared too. You did it on purpose right? So that I cannot scold you through your chatter box.
Wah: It's Lady btw, not auntie. The chatter box disappear on its own. This was just a coincident ok? I'm not that evil as to remove my chatter box so that you cannot scold me ok?

4)My goddness, you're alive!
Wah: Ya lah. Alive and kicking. Just lazy to move my fingers to blog.

I'm blogging..

It's been so long since i've blogged. Now that i'm back to blog once again, I don't know what I should blog about. I've been wanting to blog about a lot of things. Some of them are

1)My new found love: Gakuen Alice(manga)
2)Crappy Stuff that Me and Mehmeh does
3)Horrific Exam (My last paper)
4)Final Year Project progress
5)My school's canteen
6)My Christmas cum anniversary present
7)Yang's love for Crystal Red Shrimps.

Note that they are not ranked or placed in any order. They are just random stuff that I want to nag,complain,tell,shout,share on. =) I wouldn't be blogging all of them today but if anything that might interest you, do drop a msg on my chatterbox and I'll consider blogging on it then. Lol.

What I want to blog about today is on Changi Airport Terminal 3's Open House~

Yeah, it's a wish come true since I was dying to have a look at it during my exams. One thing that most of you would have guess and got it correct was that it looks futuristic. So outstanding as compared to Terminal 1 & 2 that mehmeh said that T1&2 should seriously consider some renovations. I really like the grand and creative design of the interior as well. There's the Green wall, butterfly garden, the areas where seats are provided and a small Jurassic-look-a-like corner that really interest me.

My thoughts on the first look at the Green wall were: 'Looks pretty normal plants to me. What's all so special about it that they want to give it a special name and list it as one of the attractions?'. After I discover that the toilets windows allows you to see through the Green wall, i start to realize that the Green wall is a brilliant method to decorate the place and to allow people to look at the crowds walking around on the ground floor while easing(gents). But that's for Gents only (Info from mehmeh). A corner of the Ladies as shown below.

Picture taken in the Ladies showing the green wall.

On the guide that was provided, it showed a section call 'Butterfly garden'. They'll most probably place some butterflies into that place and let people enjoys some close contact with the butterflies like the Butterfly Park at Sentosa. Since the Butterfly garden was close during my visit and no butterflies was seen. Kind of disappointing.

Picture taken showing the butterfly garden.

There are seats everywhere after you pass through the 'gate' (the 'gate' where you have to go into to wait for your plane). All of them are nicely designed and blend in nicely with the surroundings.

Picture showing mehmeh on one of the seats. (Thumbs up!)

Last but not least, some pictures showing the small Jurassic-look-a-like corner that I've mentioned previously (with a two really cute dinos in it.lol).

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Dino 1 in Jurassic Park

Dino 2 in Jurassic Park