It's fated..

After reading one of my seondary school's friend blog entry, I felt sad for her and myself(haha). I'm not close to her so I've never knew the kind of problems she faces which her family. (Anyway, I just happen to found her blog add. so I took a look at how she is...blah blah..) She mentioned about not being able to get along with her sisters and she trying to please her mum. It's terrible to know these situation about you friend and know that there's nothing you can do to ease her mind. It's fated that we are born in the families we are born in. We can't change anything, Neither can we change the fact that we are biological connected. We have to accept the fact that we are a family regardless of how much we dislike each other. Reading her blog bring back memories, unpleasent ones. I empathy her.
It's never a simple task to go back home and all you see are people who treat you worst than their friends. Communication been two person is always a complex topic where everyone have to learn and make use of till they die.
I never have a 'good' family and i never will. When I was young, I hated my sister. We used to quarrel over almost anything. "She was selfish and a hypocrite. Always acted like a nice person around her friends." That was what I used to think of her. It was only after my parents divorce then did our relationship grew. We can go out shopping together now. Just the two of us. She tells me things and i lend her my nitendo to play with. I don't know we had such a 'dramatic' change. Maybe cause we've grown mature or maybe cause my parents divorced and we can only talk among siblings. Come to think of it, I can never enjoyed family life last time and I never could after the divorce.
It hurts everytime Meh Meh tell me about him not getting along with his mum or his grandmother.( He lives with his parents and grandparents. How forunate right?) I can't shun away because he expects me to listen to him when he is sad. When he speaks, nothing really gets into my brain. The only thought I keep on having was "At least they are alive and you all are living under one roof."
Wost of all, I can't do anything to salvage the marriage. All I could do at that point of time was to receieved the pain that it brings alone and "Leave it to the adults to handle." (That was what I was told by almost everyone and anyone since I was going to have my A levels. ). How ironic can this be? Children of the family are the ones who feel the impact the most yet there is nothing they can do to aviod it. "You shall reap what you sow." --> Ya right!Doesn't make any sense to me now.
The only thing I can relate this situation to is fate. Non-scientific beliefs to find a possible solution to ease my own mind. It shall remain a wound that not even Meh Meh can understands.